Sunshine,

I will go to sleep happy. That is all. And wake up for a morning run with the lovely castre.

Such a nice day to go on a hike. That is what I shall do :) 

CLEAR MY MIND.

I know I’m a girl. I’m suppose to love shopping, but I hate it with a passion. Unless I’m with my mom or by myself. I just don’t like to be rushed, and i don’t like shopping with others because I feel pressured. So today I thought i would be nice and go to the mall with kristina since she needed help picking out an outfit. Okay, so I thought it would take 2 hours tops….and I needed to get my mom a mothers day gift too (which i never got). But OMG what i thought was going to take an hour took FOUR. I really did think it was only going to be an hour because i made plans with steven to hike at 6 and had to cancel because we were still at the mall. So this trip to the mall took 4 hours!! 4 freaking hours of my life wasted! I’ll never get that time back! It was especially frustrating because i so badly wanted to buy everything, but had to resist because I just bought Javier a really nice watch for his birthday.. I really wanted to spend my friday afternoon doing homework then seeing either beka or kristina in the afternoon after my hike. That was my plan, but it didnt happen. I came home around 9, grumpy. I know Im a big baby. I did get excited because my parents werent home, so i knew i could get homework done :) BUTTTTTTT i see lauren p in the driveway…and I’m like woohoo i get to see her and talk! But she was over because she was picking up my sister, so they can have a spontaneous trip to VEGAS! I was sooooooo jealous! RARWWWW! i didnt get invited!! lol… they always invite me everywhere! so i guess that made me grumpier. Man writing this makes me sound like a loser, but I’m going to blame half this on my period. So I’m embarrassed to admit but i went to the restroom and i wanted to cry, but i couldnt. lol it was too pathetic to cry over. I tried to cry, but nothing came out. lol. so then i started my homework. hehe. And while doing my homework, my frustration arose because beka text me to hangout and i had to refuse, so i thought i would vent on here. Im not sure how i feel right now…. 

I’ve been training for this baby since February and the most I got up to when I was training was about 6.5 miles. The half marathon is 13.1 miles! I felt pretty confident today. I was so excited! I’m going to break it down for you.

First 6 miles- EASY PEEZY! I even thought to myself, “AHHH i feel so good! This is so easy! I love it! Can’t wait to sign up for the next one!”

They had water stations and bathrooms every 1-2 miles and although i had to pee really bad i didn’t want to lose my stamina. The first 6 miles I would take one sip of the water and keep going.

Mile 4- Passed 2:30 pacer

Mile 5: stayed behind the 2:20 pacer

Mile 7.5: My breaking point! I felt like someone literally sucked all the energy from me. I felt dehydrated…tired…exhausted. I lost the 2:20 pacer at this point.

Mile 8: 2:20 pacer was out of my sight. We were running along the cliff and I thought i was going to throw up. The smell of the sea didn’t help. SO FISHY. I took half of my gel shot and that didn’t help, just made me feel worse. I threw it on the floor.

Mile 9: Finally peed…and from this point on i actually drank two cups of water at each mile mark. Still stuggling.

Mile 10: My thoughts, “3 miles left! EASY! Let’s do this!” I was never mentally done throughout the race, just physically. I needed that push and lo behold Beyonce “run da world” came on my playlist! AH she gave me that extra boost! I seriously felt like a “BOSS” at that point and wanted to pass up every male running! hahaa!

Mile 10: Gave us another gel shot that i didnt take

Mile 11: gave us an orange, i refused.

Mile 12: gave us a banana and cliff bar, refused. All i wanted was water! not even gatorade, but i knew i needed that extra sugar and electrolytes so i took it. 

Mile 13: done! i swear i was the only one who sprinted the last lap to the finish line! lol i felt weird doing it, but i didnt care. Ive been trained to do that from cross country and i just wanted it to be over!

My final time was 2:20! I am so happy! i am definitely going to do another without a doubt. i love it! I want to do a triatholon!

I am so glad that this was my first half. It was a beautiful route and perfect weather for a race! We ran along pch and on cliffs. it was awesome…always a view of the water except when we went through residential areas, but that was even nice looking at million dollar homes.

I want to do the one in october in long beach, but i wish they werent so expensive. i paid 90 for this one, and the next one is 80, but its worth it. 

Side note: cliff bars are ridiculously good!